When you look at me...what do you see?

I am alone on an earth stage and scalding hot rain is falling.
My life is the dance my body moves and heart sings to.
I move blind and unknowing that a pair of eyes are watching me,wanting me...
A pair of eyes that burn,that are so galling.

I have ordinary scars that are unmentionable...
From previous fights long ago.
The soles of my feet have long been callused...
from running.
From the monsters that wanted to twist and eat my soul.

I remember clearly my feelings on that night of the freezing rain...
Vicious with overwhelming pain...
Trapped in a corner...in the corner.
Pure,wet blood dripping from between my shaking thighs.
On the old,rotting,wooden floor the makings of a beautiful red stain...
Night Falls.

The Nightmare fades away and I dance unknowing again.
My allies try their best to warn me.
That in my future,the line will be razor thin between pleasure and pain.
They scream silently that soon,very soon...I will not be free...

My emotions are shown in the dance.
Every movement is faceted with happiness...or sadness.
People who pass through my life try to tell me that I make their hearts...
move with a glance.
But I don't hear them,I just dance...dance into madness.

I am dancing down a well lit path at Midnight...
And a velvet alleyway calls to me,seductively.
Tempted i dance a little nearer...
A voice like smoky chains wraps around me,to pull me further in...
He says,"I've watched you for the longest time...you don't know how much I need you!"

I am lured despite the warnings in the back of my head saying to run...saying to fight.
And what awaits me...my Fate.
As I look at my future...I ask him one thing.

"When you look at me...what do you see?"

5-02-2004